and I was right. the man who called me that day became my one great love.

So how do you know when someone is your one great love? Frankly, there is no criteria, no one way of gauging. I guess you just know.

In my case, I know he is my one great love because I loved him even if I only knew a part of him. There were a lot of things I didn't know about him. I guess there were a lot of things he didn't want to tell me. And although I was aware that it would be crazy for me to fall madly in love with him, I still did, and I still continued loving him even after he was already long gone.

I loved him without knowing or trying to know if he loved me too. I loved him despite his inconsistencies, his mysteries, and his ambiguous intentions.

he was different from all the guys I've ever known and he was everything I've ever wanted. He made me laugh, he made me think, and he ensnared me with his unbelievable charms.

and he was the only person I have ever allowed to get in and out of my life.

the last time i saw him, he told me that he was getting married. I was in a serious relationship at that time, but hearing him say those words broke my heart into tiny pieces. I couldn't believe that the man  I have loved for such a long time and with such great intensity was going to settle down with another woman. that day, i cried until i couldn't anymore.

Every now and then I still think about him. And every time I do, I just tell myself that he will forever be my one great love.

at 30, there are still a lot of things that I don't know and don't understand about love. All I know is that the kind of love I had doesn't show itself upon us very often. If it does, we should express it, put it across. sadly, I never had the chance to do so.